Starting Friday I will be unemployed. For the second time in five years (I was laid off Jan. 2009 the day I came back to work from our short honeymoon). This is basically how I felt on Monday when I found out:
It sucks. It's scary. When I lost my job right after we got married I was out of full-time work for almost 11 months... and then found a HORRIBLE job that resulted in me coming home crying almost every day... so I was desperate to take a chance on what is my current job six months later... despite it being only part-time... and what was supposed to be part-time for 2-3 months stretched into a year of part-time work... during which we went through a lot of our savings and I feel like we're still playing catch up despite me now having been back to full-time work for two years (so to all the friends and family asking why we haven't had kids yet and when we're going to, there's the long answer).
Enough of the pity party.
I'm lucky to have had this job the last three years... with very nice people, a good work environment, and even though it pays below what I understand is the industry standard, I've had some really great opportunities--like, working with international companies and organizations, meeting some awesome business and community leaders, and writing more than I ever thought I would. Back to doing what I thought I'd be doing when I majored in advertising and pr (more or less) and helping some clients that made me feel good about putting something positive into the world (more or less; I mean, it's still work and it has its days).
But we've also worked with some really difficult people (we always figured it was a side-effect of us all being too nice to say no and thus taking on a lot of pro-bono work, delivering above-and-beyond, etc.) And it was a super-small, family organization; meaning that at some point the principals would be ready to move on... unfortunately that time came sooner than any of us expected as it was expedited by some of the aforementioned really difficult people. Long story short, the agency is closing its doors and my job of three years is no more.
It's not the worst thing in the world (at least not yet). I had come to the realization in the last few months that I had done about all I could do in my current position and with the business not really growing, it was time for me to move on (I was also soooo ready to be done with the aforementioned really difficult people). So I was already kinda' keeping my eyes open for the next thing. Of course, I would have liked to be able to continue working full-time while searching for the next opportunity and making that transition. And you know, keep paying rent and eating.
But there are a few advantages:
- Not having to "sneak around" trying to apply and interview while still working full-time. I've only done it once and some casual browsing but it's like, you feel deceitful, you know?
- My bosses have TONS of contacts and are being extremely supportive--giving me archives to add to a portfolio, sending my resume to their colleagues who have already promised to forward it, and offering recommendations. I am confident that their support is going to be an asset.
- I have a few things that I've been wanting to get done that I was trying to schedule around business hours (appointments, carpet cleaning, etc.); so my hope is that I'll be not working just long enough to take care of a few things.
I also have incredible family who are supportive and sympathetic and have promised to not let me end up being a hobo (although sometimes that doesn't sound like a bad option, trains are cool).
I've had my mind on some goals and "to-dos" for myself... because I know that unemployment can be super frustrating and depressing.
So I'll be putting those down in writing and hope that helps me stick to them so that this time, however long (hopefully short!) it is will be productive, healthy and mainly positive. I'm doing my best not to freak out.
Please wish me luck, pray to your Diety of Choice, send me the good vibes that you have, and let's hope karma is on my side. Unfortunately karma doesn't pay the bills so let's hope "Getting A New (and much more lucrative) Job Is In My Very Near Future."
Here goes nothing!